Hello Valerie,
I planned suicide more than once and thought about it often. You have been through more hell than me.
It took BobbiJo 30 minutes to tell her story of being pimped out, left for dead and other horrendous things. Watch her movie (below) and contact her.
I try to reach out to the homeless a little and I know it is hard to believe God loves you but HE loves you more than you know and at the end HE will be there.
I said God help me stop drinking. HE did in one night. The most ignored verse in the Bible is HE that raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you Rom. 8:11.
I can’t explain why we go through so much turmoil but when you get through it you will forget how bad it was – ask BobbiJo.
I cn tell you a little more if you are interested.
Blessings,
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The Lord is telling me to tell you this:

God is your best friend.
God is your best ally.
God LOVES you beyond anything you can ever hope or imagine!
His love for you is deeper than any well!
Nobody loves you or will ever love you more than He does.
His love for you is Eternal.
His love for you is EVERLASTING.
He will never ever not love you.
He will never love you any less.
He will never forsake you.
Until the day you pass away, His door will always be open to you.
You are so precious to Him that when you talk to Him or pray, He listens.
You MATTER to Him and your life matters deeply to Him.

He is telling me to tell you this.
He is also telling me to tell you that He cannot help you without you believing the above.

Our sorrow, our tears and our pain pains God. But he is even more heart-broken over our unbelief.

Our unbelief ties His hands. If we don’t believe that God loves us and that He is for us, then we tie His hands.

The world says “Show me and then I’ll believe.” With God, it is the opposite. First we believe, then we see.

That is why Satan tries all he can to cause us to doubt that we are loved and that our lives don’t really matter. The truth is the complete opposite.

Years ago, I was having major problems believing God. I was judging God’s love for me by my own interpretation of my life experiences. I was doing so by leaning to my own understanding. But the Bible tells us to trust God with all our heart and lean not to our own understanding.

I asked the Lord what He wanted me to understand. He told me “Understand that you don’t understand.”

He asked me that I should instead trust Him by CHOOSING to believe that He loves me.

When I deliberately and with difficulty chose to believe that He loves me, that is when the breakthroughs came. When I chose to believe Him, He caused me believe Him.

When we believe God, GOOD things happen.

Valerie, the Lord is telling me to tell you that He has SO MUCH for you to live for. He is telling me to tell you that just as He did with Job, He will give you double what Satan has stolen from you. He wants to RICHLY BLESS you with LIFE. You will have so much Peace and Joy and True Life in Him that it will cause you and others to be in awe of His Power in your life!!!

Cheers Valerie! God loves *you*!

ps. I was born and raised Moslem and I became a child of God through The Lord Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is God and God is the Lord Jesus Christ: Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen?